When A Virgin Writes...

Yosh~

I'm 25 years old this year...almost, in a month and a half. 

Being single as fuck, that is my OWN choice (and maybe lacking a lil' bit of lady luck on my side but whatever).

I can actually foresee myself being a single, virgin lady until I'm 30 but Mama would've hated just the idea of it. She wants me to get married before 30, not 30 onwards!

Do I want to stay single until 30 though? 

That is the ultimate question.

Thing is, I've been saying I don't mind staying single until 30 but the truth is, I am curious, thinking about the prospect of having someone fall for me, and me falling for him.

It's just weird and kind of impossible, don't you think?

BECAUSE, nobody in his sane mind would fall for the 'real' me.

Crushing on me? Could've happened...

Obsessed with me? THAT had happened (my vain side agreed with this).

Liking me i.e. my weirdness, my RANDOMNESS, my procrastination habit, my indifference, my moustache (LMAO!), my physique, my FANGIRLINGNESS over dramalandsss...

HHHMMMMMMM...............

NOW, do YOU think ANYONE would ever fall for me during my 20s?

I personally don't think so.

Sorry for thinking so superficially and being so judgmental about guys but so far, this is what I've concluded.

Let's face it, I genuinely believe I will finally find a person that appreciates me for who I am and vice versa when I've reached that 3 pointer of age. 

Or maybe right now I'm just being bitter because I feel that the-guy-I'm-crushing-on-at-this-moment and I are not meant to be because THOSE HINTS I'VE BEEN GETTING FROM THE UNIVERSE ARE SO...TRANSPARENT! I.DON'T.EVEN *sighs*

I'm so over this...

*siiiigghhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuhhhssssssssssssssssssssssssssss*

P/S: Having one-sided crushes is one of the biggest predicaments I have to face in my 25 years of living.