Apathetically Speaking...

i.e. the rebirth of the heart of yours truly Please let us move on with ease, God. Aamiiin to that .

Yosh ~ I'm 25 years old this year...almost, in a month and a half.  Being single as fuck, that is my OWN choice (and maybe lacking a lil' bit of lady luck on my side but whatever). I can actually foresee myself being a single, virgin lady until I'm 30 but Mama would've hated just the idea of it. She wants me to get married before 30, not 30 onwards! Do I want to stay single until 30 though?  That is the ultimate question. Thing is, I've been saying I don't mind staying single until 30 but the truth is, I am curious, thinking about the prospect of having someone fall for me, and me falling for him. It's just weird and kind of impossible, don't you think? BECAUSE, nobody in his sane mind would fall for the 'real' me. Crushing on me? Could've happened ... Obsessed with me? THAT had happened (my vain side agreed with this). Liking me i.e. my weirdness, my RANDOMNESS, my procrastination habit, my indifferen...

Heart thumping. Cold sweats all over your body. You, feeling suicidal, Hopeless, Apathetic, *sighs* ....